It was a lovely piece! I don’t know if this gives you any hope, but I was in a very similar place as you just three years ago. I came out about a year ago, and it’s been quite a year, but as bumpy as its been, I am just profoundly more at peace. If anything, my post about hurdles should show how most of being out in the world isn’t dealing with daily oppression, but just dealing with the fear of oppression. I’ve spent this year trying to get over my self loathing. I’m sure I’ll spend the next few years getting over the fear. And on the other end will be being, which is all I’ve ever wanted. I’m sure you an have that too.